I had 3 attacks today
I thought it was a gone case for me
This is the first time it hurts so bad
During the second attack, I'm already thinking of giving up the fight

I called Eve. But I really don't know how to tell her
I called Linda. I don't know why
But I feel that she is the one that will hold R.H.G together

I thought about it alot.
Who will I worry the most when I'm gone
The answer is obvious

I lied to alot of people today...again
This sux
But I'm a coward
I hide things, for my sake
I'm selfish
I know
But I just want to see everyone smile

I'm really tired.
Not everyone can be Superman
Sometimes I just wanna be Goofy

The one that's closest to you hurts you the most.

Now I fully understand the meaning.
Why?
I already lost one, am I gonna lose another one?

Feel like a fucking blind retard.
Sometimes, I just wish that I never wakes up from the dream.
Continue living as a puppet.
Doing things they want me to
Going places they want me to
Living life the way they want me to
Following the plan
It should be less painful that way

Freedom has a price
But I'm nowhere near freedom
Yet I've paid so much already
I feel so tired